Imagine
Not only was I embarrassed about falling on the Post Office steps, but this elderly gentleman tried to help me up and ended up hurting his back. When it was clear that I had a major injury to my hip, we agreed I should just stay quiet until the ambulance came. Once I got to the ER, the x-rays showed an uncomplicated fracture and they arranged for surgery this morning. They gave me meds through the night, which was a long one and made me itch all night, I hardly slept.
Hospitals scare me. if I get a hospital acquired infection I might be hospitalized weeks longer and since they will be doing surgery on my hip (ie bones,) if an infection gets in there, I’m done. Forming a pulmonary clot is also a big risk for this sort of injury. I know too much.
So now I thirsty and I can’t eat or drink anything. I’ve been awake on and off all night, my hip hurts. I had to call Mo because he was supposed to meet me to clear out the garage. I’m going to be in the hospital for a while and the closing for my new house was next Mon which I won’t get to and I may even need to go to rehab. Looks like my trip to Oregon in 2 weeks is off too. Realistically there’s no way I’ll be mobile enough to get my house ready to sell and pack it all up to move by April.
All of the above is my lemonade factory. All of that unreal scenario would be true if I had actually fallen, leaving me sitting in a hospital bed in pain, wishing I hadn’t slipped and fallen and thinking how easily one’s life can radically change in an instant. But! Instead, I’m sitting at home in front of the fire, Mo came by to take away some more stuff to the transfer station and I’m finalizing my decisions on how I want my new house painted. I often fail to appreciate the enormity of some of the disasters I have narrowly missed and the gratitudes I never think to have.
Also, I’m grateful for a lowered total of expected snow tonight
and that Mo took some more stuff to the transfer station.
That I have picked out the colors for my house and will probably get it painted when I’m visiting, before there’s any furniture.
And I’m realizing that I have some wonderful things for my new house that have stayed packed or have not had the pride of place they deserve in the general chaos of my house.